Sup, long time no see?

[Denial]

Even though this is LONG dead. I thought I would chime in...

Omg HI, Remember me?

It's been awhile and I think its about time everyone receives some answers.

Here's a few FUN FACTS to get us started.

(X) DENIAL was the creator of EverLost. not Ritza. She twisted and turned it into something she preferred... We all know she cannot allow anyone else to have any glory. She wanted to lead the project. She wanted ALL the power... Sound familiar? It should, its the same shit that went on with ITr.
(X) You all blame DENIAL, yet what did she ever do publicly that was wrongful? Never did I hack any other server, I have better things to do. Never did I shit talk another server, its members, its staff. ALL RITZA. The only thing I did was B I T C H and yell at all our lazy staff members. IN PRIVATE.
I shouldn't be so vague. Not all our staff were lazy, nor useless. Just, not what we needed to build a successful MMORPG. What we needed was maturity, skill, and commitment. The game should have been developed in private and released when a beta was readily available. We screwed up. This is true. But how many have promised games and never produced? Ran out of funding? Proved to be too much? Out grew that part of their life? LOTS. So don't lay blame on me, and talk about how typical it was of me to just drop off the face of the planet. I spent countless hours trying to get a hold of Ritza, to obtain what source she said she had created, the original files for the models, as well as access to the site so I could shut it down, update the staff... anything. With no prevail I dwindled off to my own work. No one logged into EverLost, so I left.
(X) True. I never let the other staff know I was leaving, for that I apologize. I suck. I was frustrated and angry. What I wanted to create had been spun into this shittastic masterpiece that I KNEW was too much for a bunch of young adults to make with out an experienced coder. To be honest, there may be some embarrassment to be added to that, that's right. I Denial was embarrassed we had gotten ourselves so deep into something we couldn't take back.
(X) DENIAL never really died. I picked up my life and moved on, when Ritza decided to go MIA and refused to call Denial let alone anyone else back. There was no point. She was the only one with access to the site, the source, everything we had.
(X) Who knows where Ritza is, and frankly we don't care.

Now onto the fun stuff.... EVERLOST WAS SUPPOSE TO BE this
An animal based mmorpg. Forest/woodland animals being the stars. With possible expansions into other regions.
this means, you could have expected to play as:
- Cervine (moose, elk, white tailed, etc... you get the picture)
- Ursidae (grizzly, black, etc..)
- Canids (wolves, coyotes, foxes, etc)
- Rodentia
- Leporidae
- Procyon lotor
- Caballus (Was discussed. Horses/ponies would likely of been added later.)
- Felidae (mountain lions, cougars, etc)


Pretty simple right? Just a broader version of any existing MMORPG. With a much larger scale including realistic hunting (which could be turned on/off with the click of a button), maps would be specifically rendered for that style of simulation. Role play was to be available in all regions of EverLost, our chat interface was quite extensive. It included the following (names were subject to change, they were placed for ideas):
- Clan Chat (A chat for your clan, pack, herd, etc. Just for you! No one else could see. Private.)
- Would have several sub chats, to keep your group well organized and private. No more random RPers, trolls, etc, to distract/disturb you:
- RPG (For Role playing. Would have a character limit of 1500 per post. YAY)
- Alpha chat (Set for your alpha/high ranks ONLY)
- General (Set up for any other chatter.)
- Species Chat (A chat that was closed for your species alone. Cervines could speak to Cervines. Ursidae to Ursidae. You get it.)
- World Chat (A chat that would be visible TO ALL Regions. ALL maps. EVERYWHERE.)
- T-Kentic Chat ( A private chat, for you and one other party.)
- Regional Chat (A chat visible to the entire map.)
- Group Chat ( A chat that selected members can view. For quick RP's/Private Discussions, or what ever you felt necessary. A party of up to 15, chosen by you.)

To name just a few of the chat features it was suppose to have.....

Our item system, items were made of materials naturally found in the wild. Bone, feather, foliage, pelts, etc. Once picked up you would have the ability to decide if it was an ear ring, necklace, decoration, and how/where it would be placed, pending the item itself. No more bubbles, runes, no more random eye burn shit.

This wasnt suppose to be FANTASY, it was suppose to be semi-realistic. The Unrealistic's being, unnatural colours, items (animals don't wear items in the wild), markings, and abilities. But none of that really matters any more...

I just wanted you to know THERE WAS A PLAN, a detailed plan, and Ritza wanted to do things her way... and expected everyone else to toddle along behind her like helpless puppies. I'm not a puppy. Certainly NOT helpless. Thank you very much. I'm devastated that I was involved in this, it tainted my name, ruined my outlook on MMORPGS, and made 99% of the community think I'm a damn hacker and a bitch. Which is the absolute reverse, I don't feel I should have to explain my personality. If you want to get to know me... throw me a skype request, friend me on Feral Heart (Denial), regardless I'm over this crap.

I'm sorry I failed. I'm sorry I vanished. I'm sorry I let you all down. I'm sorry I didn't try harder, or put my foot down in the beginning.

Anyway... this is dead. So this was pointless... It's worth the vent.

Love... and apologies
Denial xoxo

What ever this is. Here. Im still around. Just not with that fuck nut Ritza.

[Avani]

This was nowhere near pointless, Denial. Trust me, I am quite happy you decided to post this.
It is nice to hear from you again. Thank you for taking your time to write this vent,
and for apologizing. You are forgiven and why you did not try harder is completely understandable.
I was never much around here really, but I sure as hell was informed on 'Ritza'. She was very kind
towards me back in 2011, it is disappointing to hear about her foolish behavior. I have not seen her
in forever, hopefully she is not ruining any other game progresses. Also, I am sorry to hear people blamed you.
The detailed plan of the game sounds incredible and overall exciting,
it is a shame this project did not succeed or get that far.
This would have been a fantastic game for sure.
Excuse the rather short answer, I have no idea if you will ever visit this forum again.

[Denial]

Ahh! I was so so so curious to see if anyone ever ventured onto this forum anymore... Though, I can not say I'm shocked it'd be you Avani. Most expected. 

• You were dedicated, loyal, and of course a public favorite for years.

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I want to thank you for your kind words. I figured it was about time I came back from the dead and posted my thoughts regarding the situation. I owed the community at least that.
 
As for Ritza, I think we all fell victim to her persuasive ways. I spent many a night up with her working on things... fixing issues behind the scenes but mainly I was keeping her on track (or rather trying to). If anything Ritza knew how to manipulate. She played the minion game all to well. She got what she needed from the people who could give it to her and once she had it you meant nothing to her anymore. We saw it with Flametail... and of course myself. Unfortunately my naiveness made me blind and I walked right into the trap. I was sucked in. I liked Ritza, I considered her a friend. A good friend (as good an online friend can be anyway). She decided not to keep in touch with me after she abandoned the project without word. Started a hiatus that would never have explanation. Thus, we are where we all today.....

NOT MY CIRCUS NOT MY MONKEYS 

I wish I could say EverLost will be reborn... as it was originally intended, but I just don't have the time nor means to do so. Those in the community capable of doing such have since gone on to do other things and I'm really just over this part of my life. I'm still around upon occasion but moved on to a bigger piece of my life and don't see any reason to hold on to a community that really was a bunch of hostile teenages looking for the 'next big thing'


Anyway, thank you for the reply Avani <3 Means alot, and I am glad to see you're still around and as friendly as ever.


Denial xoxo

[Parf]

Oh man...
Man, I loved this place. This was my jam back in the years.
I want to keep in contact with anyone here that I can.

EverLost had so much potential; maybe, in my future, once I have enough education, I can try to create with the funds what so many people seem to want: aminal mmo here we go

I hope so much that you see this, Denial, and maybe Avani, too.
I've tried to contact Ritza a couple times, but I gave up after she stopped responding on the few sites on which I could find her.
This project has been rather vainly lain to rest. Its people are still around, though... I miss them.
I want to keep in touch with all of you. This place has such nice memories.

Eugh...
My contact information in case I forget to check this site again within the next couple months and you want to gain contact with me.

Steam: steamcommunity.com/id/paaaaarf/
Skype: tabithadurbin99
my dead da yay: imfrigginfluffy.deviantart.com/
Google+/YouTube: plus.google.com/u/0/+MorgueParfington/posts/p/pub
Email: [e-mail]

I love you all. ;-;

[featherclaw]

Wow, what a blast from the past you guys are... nostalgia attack!

Ritz made a mess of a lot of things, and when ITr went south, she destroyed a lot of reputations.
I was booted off a server's staff once because she commented on a status I had posted in MSN (wow I miss that) and my staffmates saw it.
All because I never deleted her after being on ITr's team (she never messaged me anyway so whatever...)

Anyway, it's been a couple years and I gotta say,

I'm sorry Denial for thinking EverLost was Ritza's idea as she made it out to be. Honestly, I was ridiculously excited for this to come out, and I think it'd still be a fantastic game if you could gather the team to do so. Though, I understand why you'd pass on that.

I'm not sure if you remember me, but it's so nice to see a familiar user or two around when I venture onto the old "hunting grounds". Most people are all new faces, or have changed their users and are unrecognizable. I'd love to track down more of our "generation" of ITers. I've only kept contact with a few throughout the years.

Well, as Fall Out Boy says, (but not in the same context)
"Thanks for the memories"

You guys rock. Made high school so much easier on me. xoxo
~Feather

[Kinder Foal]

Still here...waiting in the silence...and darkness. (Seriously, this is so dead! I miss those days this place was buzzing with action 4 years ago...yeah that long, wow)

[Parf]

I still have this thread bookmarked and I check every few days or so in case someone I remember makes a relatively important post. :I

[Lavi]

If anyone still remembers me, "hello".

I kind of stopped checking in once it was clear this project was dead. I'm so sorry for that to anyone who used to consider me a "friend", the years between now and then have been rough and I'm a failure with keeping up to date with people. Recently I've become involved with the community of another animal MMO and it brought back memories of this place.

I was blind to Ritza for the longest time. I knew her back from days in the closed beta of the original ITr server but I was younger and dumber and it took her leaving for it to kick in even though I should have listened to my concerns when she did her takeover. For a while afterward I didn't want to touch this site again because I was still angry over her. I don't miss her but I do tend to miss you guys.

Honestly, this is probably my first time logging in in almost 3 years. I have fond memories of the community (sans Ritza) here but I know I could have been a better staff member, I wasn't anything a proper MMO needed yet here I was, as a fucking moderator. I might go and reread threads here soon just to know what it was like back in these days but honestly, part of my avoidance of this place was knowing I was (again) younger and dumber and my posts are still up for anyone to read.

Denial, I'm glad you eventually came back here to tell us your side on things. I'm sorry if you ever saw me around on other places and wondered if I had read this. I'm sorry.

To the community, nobody probably cares about me anymore but here's a few ways you can contact me (or just find me on or update yourself on what I've been doing) aside from here:
DA: lunardances
Discord: Lavi#9568
Dragon's Den: Lavi (play occasionally, sorry to anyone lurking who came up to me in this and asked if I remembered you from ITr, I'm really bad with remembering usernames)
Email: [e-mail]
FH: ~Lavi~ (yes I still play this but only until an alternative is available so my group can ditch it)
Pixiv: lavsart
Steam: nearly forgot what my custom url was lmao
Tumblr : veryloovy (please talk to me on this account if you plan on using Tumblr to chat with me)
Twitter: lavsart (this is mostly used for my fanart and as a fandom account though)
I ditched Skype recently and MSN Messenger after this place was abandoned.
That was more info than I was expecting to put up

If anyone reads this then I hope the up-and-coming year 2017 will treat you guys well. I'll check in at least a few more times here and see if you guys are still around.

[Meadowstar]

Wow... I have never been active here, but I find it a shame that it came to this.

And likely, I don't think anybody will read my post.

The best of luck to all of you here, if anybody does happen to see this.

[Avani]

Aug 31, 2015 22:14:47 GMT -5 Denial said:

Ahh! I was so so so curious to see if anyone ever ventured onto this forum anymore... Though, I can not say I'm shocked it'd be you Avani. Most expected. 

• You were dedicated, loyal, and of course a public favorite for years.

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I want to thank you for your kind words. I figured it was about time I came back from the dead and posted my thoughts regarding the situation. I owed the community at least that.
 
As for Ritza, I think we all fell victim to her persuasive ways. I spent many a night up with her working on things... fixing issues behind the scenes but mainly I was keeping her on track (or rather trying to). If anything Ritza knew how to manipulate. She played the minion game all to well. She got what she needed from the people who could give it to her and once she had it you meant nothing to her anymore. We saw it with Flametail... and of course myself. Unfortunately my naiveness made me blind and I walked right into the trap. I was sucked in. I liked Ritza, I considered her a friend. A good friend (as good an online friend can be anyway). She decided not to keep in touch with me after she abandoned the project without word. Started a hiatus that would never have explanation. Thus, we are where we all today.....

NOT MY CIRCUS NOT MY MONKEYS 

I wish I could say EverLost will be reborn... as it was originally intended, but I just don't have the time nor means to do so. Those in the community capable of doing such have since gone on to do other things and I'm really just over this part of my life. I'm still around upon occasion but moved on to a bigger piece of my life and don't see any reason to hold on to a community that really was a bunch of hostile teenages looking for the 'next big thing'


Anyway, thank you for the reply Avani <3 Means alot, and I am glad to see you're still around and as friendly as ever.


Denial xoxo

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I am incredibly late with my response, but as they say; better late than never!
Your message is very touching to me and I truly appreciate your kind words, I remember feeling so at home in the ITr community.
I have never managed to fit in as well as I did there, I met the kindest souls including you! I will never forget the experience.
There are times where I wish I could go back to the start and experience the good parts all over again.

And, I can fully agree. I was blind around her and failed to see her true colors. She knew how to flatter me and keep me loyal to her.
It truly is a shame you put so much time and work into something that could have been so great, if things did not turn out the way they did.
It is scary how well manipulation works in basically any situation, you can get really far with it. I had such positive impressions of her at first,
I never would have guessed she was the power-hungry type. You deserved far better treatment and more credit for the brilliant work you did.
I completely understand the lack of time when it comes to EverLost, creating a game from scratch is one time-consuming process.
Oh well, life goes on and we move on. I truly hope you are doing good and feeling happy with life! I wish you all the best and may you
achieve everything you dream of. I have always had much respect for you, you are as fantastic as ever.
Much love! xx

[Sylph]

wow i haven't checked back here in years but it's really nice to see its not entirely dead. i think we were all manipulated by ritza one way or another. i still don't understand how i kept following her even past ITr and its drama. she was just so nice to me and i guess i fell for it. it's nice to read your side of things denial, even though i'm years late in doing so ;_; everyone's replies, also. the good memories we had were nice, helped me a lot back then. not sure if anyone wants to still keep in touch or if anyone will read this but i'm on discord steph#9745 twitter @ virtuousgrief and tumblr @ nocctis if anyone still wants to chat or get to know me idk
but yeah these were a nice read, hope you're all doing well <3

[forte]

Holy fuck y'all. How've you been!
-Lugailover

Hmu on avnai.deviantart.com or Discord CITY#3624

[Denial]

It makes me kinda giggle people still come on here <3

[Leopardpelt]

It has been so long! I used to come on here so often, my laptop automatically set this site as my homepage. I really miss you all so much, and I feel bad about what we couldn't achieve as a whole. We all had fun, and it felt amazing.

[forte]

Twas good times, good times -Lugai